Real or Fake?

i'm fourteen years old now. and when i was 12 y.o I just meet someone. he's very kind,funny,cheerful person. and i just with him almost 2 years. i believe him sooo much. and then..... he has changed to annoyed,bad guy,and like an evil. This situation i'm just like foolish person. cried,sadly,feel in pain. he looked at someone else when i still with him. there's no words to describe our status. But.... because this tragedy i have changed. idk this changed make me be better or be worst. maybe in the better place is I'm NOT trust so easy again to someone who says love me. but in the worst place is I became to person who's CAN'T distinguish real or fake someone's heart. sometimes this feeling just make me sick,confused,and mad. and i apologize to every person who's not I believed. bcs i just don't know you're in real or fake :p And i just want you to know, I've been hard to changed this nature, but i will always try. If you can't waiting me to changed, just go on and leave me behind :) I'll be fine, eventually. And i can found other person who's can loyal and won't give up on me. :)

feelings.

Have you ever feel jealous to see someone who you loved with someone else? have you ever feel brokenheart with someone you couldn't live? have you ever feel dissapoint with someone who you believed so much? have you ever feel like you must go from someone who you loved so much? have you ever feel like you ignored to someone who you want to share story with? have you ever feel totally alone when you're in a crowd? have you ever feel sad when someone who you loved don't feel anything about you? and EVERYTHING like that just make me sick. I don't know why, but i can't stop this feeling. it still hurts. Rite.